he with me

finally i hv make a decision, im choose to be alone, i found tht i cant put in myself to be with him,wht happen to me? Act from the beginning im not realize with this prob,as long as until now, this prob make me not feeling nice in my heart, im scare i wil hurt each other in the future,..Anywhere i wish to tell him abt my feeling when all things settle down, while waiting for that day, i will repeat n repeat to think abt this decision. i wil keep on pray to God wish him can guide me always.