Hurt n loneliness

My hand is so hurt bcoz im falled on the way im bck to room..so hurt. im cried, like a little girl need so someone to appease me.Then,my little roommate came to my side.."wht happen to u? roommate..."haha..im laugh n tell her, im PK lo...
No body know wht is in mind, im felt lonely n realise tht i hv nobody to count on, anywhere just can be here stay stronger n stronger. i hv change a lot from last time til now..im used to be a timid girl, im always wish tht hv someone stay bside me, close with me, let me count on, n with him i wont hv any trouble..i think tht's a sign of lonelinees tht's make me sick..i wil be cured very soon..

the prob tht im ashame to face with

i cant expect that finally our relationship wil end up like this way, i think he might angry me bcoz i never face to face discuss with him, i never respect his feelings as well. i feel sorry n ashame coz me not dare to face him, from the beginning i never told him my feelings tht i cant put in myself to be with him. Am i cruel ? wht i wish to said is i ady knw where d limitation of our relationship, it force me to leave at tht point if nt it might hurt each of us consequently.

he with me

finally i hv make a decision, im choose to be alone, i found tht i cant put in myself to be with him,wht happen to me? Act from the beginning im not realize with this prob,as long as until now, this prob make me not feeling nice in my heart, im scare i wil hurt each other in the future,..Anywhere i wish to tell him abt my feeling when all things settle down, while waiting for that day, i will repeat n repeat to think abt this decision. i wil keep on pray to God wish him can guide me always.

很害怕自己又遇上那个。。

这几天的我，反复想着我和他的感情从开此到现在，建立的是否真确，我的出现是对的时候吗? 想着想着，也许当初的自己出现是错了，为何这次与上次一样，帮了两个他度过了他们分手后的难关，之后的自己却陷了身下去呢? 喜欢的理由是什么? 是因为我的陪伴吗? 就因为我那在身边的陪伴吗? 好害怕遇回以前的同一那人。我不要，我真的不要...我要的只是那简单的感情而已。
31/8/07
3.45am