电话弄丢记。

9月7日，大头虾的我把电话给弄丢了，失去了很多朋友的联络电话，当中有该继续和不该继续联络的人，心里情绪复杂交错。身边很多朋友都说："是时候换电话啦。。"..真的笑不出咯。过后的那几天，让我发现多一样不开心的事，给人欺骗了有半年时间啦，其实在中间时，明明自己是感觉到的，却还真的天真到让那个人三两句就哄妥了。笨咯...!再一次问自己是否自我保护该加强呢?自己承认很多时候遇到人际问题时，很多时候选择不把它复杂化，难道这样不对吗？也许现在看清那人也是好的吧，失去联络也算是对的时候吧？也许这就是天父的旨意..

Get well soon

im regret of wht i did again, i shouldnt make tht's decision without proper thinking, the consequence is i get hurt. This is a good lesson for me from God, make me know tht the true love not easily to get, not a simple guy come to approach u then he is really suit to u...im get hurt because i easy to falls to him,tot he is the ppl tht i can count on, sharing n also talking. now, im become less confident of myself . Dear God, when do i can cover bck for this bad memory? please give me energy to keep on going...i dun do this again.

A selfish gal

Im interested to knw im hw much selfish in my frens heart? wht rate do they wil giv me? recently im realise tht i did a selfish thing last time, i did the same mistake but tht time im stil confident to say " im rite". a brand new year..i wish my attitude can change to be patient to face my partner in my life.

Hurt n loneliness

My hand is so hurt bcoz im falled on the way im bck to room..so hurt. im cried, like a little girl need so someone to appease me.Then,my little roommate came to my side.."wht happen to u? roommate..."haha..im laugh n tell her, im PK lo...
No body know wht is in mind, im felt lonely n realise tht i hv nobody to count on, anywhere just can be here stay stronger n stronger. i hv change a lot from last time til now..im used to be a timid girl, im always wish tht hv someone stay bside me, close with me, let me count on, n with him i wont hv any trouble..i think tht's a sign of lonelinees tht's make me sick..i wil be cured very soon..

the prob tht im ashame to face with

i cant expect that finally our relationship wil end up like this way, i think he might angry me bcoz i never face to face discuss with him, i never respect his feelings as well. i feel sorry n ashame coz me not dare to face him, from the beginning i never told him my feelings tht i cant put in myself to be with him. Am i cruel ? wht i wish to said is i ady knw where d limitation of our relationship, it force me to leave at tht point if nt it might hurt each of us consequently.

he with me

finally i hv make a decision, im choose to be alone, i found tht i cant put in myself to be with him,wht happen to me? Act from the beginning im not realize with this prob,as long as until now, this prob make me not feeling nice in my heart, im scare i wil hurt each other in the future,..Anywhere i wish to tell him abt my feeling when all things settle down, while waiting for that day, i will repeat n repeat to think abt this decision. i wil keep on pray to God wish him can guide me always.

很害怕自己又遇上那个。。

这几天的我，反复想着我和他的感情从开此到现在，建立的是否真确，我的出现是对的时候吗? 想着想着，也许当初的自己出现是错了，为何这次与上次一样，帮了两个他度过了他们分手后的难关，之后的自己却陷了身下去呢? 喜欢的理由是什么? 是因为我的陪伴吗? 就因为我那在身边的陪伴吗? 好害怕遇回以前的同一那人。我不要，我真的不要...我要的只是那简单的感情而已。
31/8/07
3.45am