温室里的变化～

好长的一段日子没写部落格了，生活并不是很忙碌，只因没那什么心情写。最近值得开心的事，二哥变了，他的改变是让爸妈开心的，还记得那天爸妈探望过他后，回到家时迫不及待的跟家里上上下下的人报告这喜讯～好久没跟他聊了～有空真的要写封信给他，好奇怪的晓蕙，很多时候一些言语用写的方式反而会比较大胆的，听人家说，中国人就是如此的含蓄，透过嘴巴来表达爱时，是比较害羞的～
可以这样说吧，自我们家的第一个宝贝出生后，二哥的离开也算是第二次家人们的举动，一一的改变了～
终于自己能在家人面前勇敢的说出自己的想法与感受，妈妈变得比以前有耐心的听诉，大哥对二哥的慰问， 爸爸回想以前对二哥说过的伤人的话而感到抱歉，很感恩这一切的改变发生在我的家人身上～
Dear～谢谢你一直的陪伴，我和你的感情也渐渐成长。二哥的改变是上天的恩典，希望你我的感情在将来的那天被大家接受，不再让你受委屈了。今天在工作时，在想着自己什么时候才有那机会和你享有那该有的自由呢？能自由的做你我想做的事，而不再偷偷摸摸了？这是我亏欠你的..谢谢你因为你能体谅我家人的想法与感受，dear,相信我好吗？我知道爸妈的想法，对我的期望，就让他们慢慢的接受他们的女儿一天接一天渐渐的长大，让这时间让他们对我变得更有信心，好吗？与其现在让他们知道后，只会觉得我任性，倒不如以后让他们不再担忧我时才说。时间真是一个好好的见证～

Dear mum n bro..

dear bro,long time dint see u even talk to you, wish tat u be strong over there,i will pray to u here everyday. If got chance to talk with u,i wish to tell u tat mum missing u much, something is happy to share is, u are the hope for her, im feel happy when i hear tis come out from her mouth,she has change his mind! Is a new life for our family, change to become more happiness. I knew tat day is not far from us.

dear..i wish to let u knw

"if 1day, u really find 1 tat better tat me tat u feel,dun worry abt me....watever how i will still love u....watever u do any to me,u leave me,i'll keep stay here to wait u..."

dear, this is nt i wish to hear. which gal would like to hear tht her lover call her to choose the other guy? Parents opinion just wish tht our life can be better, i do wish tht the future u are the one who go along with me no matter anythings happen.. strive hard to get new better life ok? i knw both of us strong enuf to overcome tht. let other knw tht both of us being together is a happy thg..

累了…

its cloudy day here today,my mood also become blue,too. Feel tired not only physically but also mentally, stress of work?thinking too much,i admit im tis kind of person. Im sorry for those fren tat affected by my emotional thinking,just give me sometimes to make adjustment n recover soon. I wil learn to be keep silent rather than express all unkind feelings to u all.

眼泪干了，勇敢去了

又是一年的尾端了，少不了的就是找个角落来发恼骚，埋怨一下这整个年头里,自己做过堕落的事，骄傲的事，伤心的都给记下来。记忆里最深刻的那事是-那一天，我搭车回学校去，路途中，一边在看着信息，眼泪不受控制的流，还好那坐在隔壁的朋友看不见我这狼狈的样子。新的一年，为了自己该好好的争取机会见识多点，不想如朋友所说的的那么天真

电话弄丢记。

9月7日，大头虾的我把电话给弄丢了，失去了很多朋友的联络电话，当中有该继续和不该继续联络的人，心里情绪复杂交错。身边很多朋友都说："是时候换电话啦。。"..真的笑不出咯。过后的那几天，让我发现多一样不开心的事，给人欺骗了有半年时间啦，其实在中间时，明明自己是感觉到的，却还真的天真到让那个人三两句就哄妥了。笨咯...!再一次问自己是否自我保护该加强呢?自己承认很多时候遇到人际问题时，很多时候选择不把它复杂化，难道这样不对吗？也许现在看清那人也是好的吧，失去联络也算是对的时候吧？也许这就是天父的旨意..

Get well soon

im regret of wht i did again, i shouldnt make tht's decision without proper thinking, the consequence is i get hurt. This is a good lesson for me from God, make me know tht the true love not easily to get, not a simple guy come to approach u then he is really suit to u...im get hurt because i easy to falls to him,tot he is the ppl tht i can count on, sharing n also talking. now, im become less confident of myself . Dear God, when do i can cover bck for this bad memory? please give me energy to keep on going...i dun do this again.